Ever been annoyed by someone’s payout? Could be monetary, or maybe they’re getting a lot of props and respect for something they created, a promotion or a crazy job offer, and maybe they’re just experiencing hella good luck and fortune.
I’m finding myself here right now and this morning I realized I’m looking for the exact same thing. All of the negative emotions I was feeling and directing towards this person instantly went away as I would have to put the same wack pressures on myself to be totally honest and just.
The annoying feeling I was having is jealously straight up. It shouldn’t be this way. They shouldn’t have gotten this/that. Totally 100% jealous wackness. I justified it past jealousy and -even worse- kept making it a topic of convo with fam and friends 🤮
I bet we can put almost anything bugging us to this test. Dig deep – try and find the part of you that wants the same payout (money or not). Call yourself out. It feels really good and nobody has to know anyways – besides not having to hear you talk shit about someone (pretty good trade)!
Even more meta (I think) is that this person’s fortune might have actually seeded my idea! I was so astonished at what they accomplished, my idea probably subconsciously gained steam! Because if anything can happen (and it totally can) then it’s less crazy to think about accomplishing my dreams.
If it wasn’t jealousy we’d celebrate and honor the good fortune. No little voice would find it annoying or unfair. With the garunteed inmperance of life, why not acknowledge, give props, and move on as opposed to adding a lingering negative thought cloud to your head?
For me it took figuring out I wanted the same thing this time, and directing all that negativity on myself seemed like a less cool way to move about the day than staying at peace and trying to do the incredible work we’re all capable of doing all the time.